me and CS

May 5, 2008

I was browsing the net and found a “HIRING” sign being highlighted. I clicked on it, thinking that they were searching for a blogger that would post something about them. Instead, I found a job vacancy for computer programmers and one qualification states that the aspirant should be good at C++. I’ve known that program before. I’ve had a year on computer programming but unfortunately being a programmer was not my thing. I just can’t make a decent or working program. It was tough. I’ve memorized the book and yet I always end up with twisted outputs. I was brought back to my CS years. Way back, we were just few among all who were brave enough to desire a profession that’s daunting (at least for me). We’re trying to figure out mathematical stuffs, from the numbers that we have to equate on college algebra, to integral calculus and up to the highest level of mathematical bewildering equations for programs to be existent. It was tough, often times I have to edit a classmate’s program just for me to comply with the assignment. It was demoralizing. It’s as if you’re brain was non-existent. I did not know then, what part of my brain to shake for my mathematical proficiency to awake. I did try to awaken it nonetheless; it remained dormant and limited upon the simple mathematical know-how that I have to delve in. So I decided to end up my dilemma and opted for something that frees me from my incapacity. My profession doesn’t totally liberate me from equations, I still encounter numbers, but they are the type that I can handle. Most often, these numbers are directly related to life. As a programmer numbers can be edited, but as a nurse, a number would mean life, which can’t be subjected to any editing.